I’ve been in Singapore with Jaxon and Levi. Our visa arrangements require us to exit Indonesia regularly and then come back and start over again.
So we pick a nearby country and go scurry up an adventure.
With Dirk and Luke in America, it left the three of us behind to venture out on our own this time.
Our experience in Singapore was a little dizzying. We explored a pristine, very orderly, sparkling city island, towering with skyscrapers and oozing wealth (not Indonesia).
I looked for poor people. And I couldn’t find them. I know they are there.
One night we visited a very popular landmark.. the Merlion Statue looks over the city hallowed as the “Guardian of Prosperity”.
I walked passed a guy wearing a t-shirt with the words “I make more cash in a day than your credit card limit” emblazend across his chest. I double checked, sure I couldn’t have read it right the first time.
Heading into a hotel I honestly thought we’d stumbled into a fancy car show, turns out it was just the parking lot.
I’m going away wondering how disorienting this must be for my boys. They play with kiddos from communities of the poorest of the poor one weekend and stroll between Lamborghinis and Porsches the next.
And then, there’s the earthquake that rumbled off the coast of Bali an hour after we left it, and set off sirens of concerns about a volcano that’s been awakened and will likely blow its top again soon.
I’ve heard 35,000 people had to leave their homes too close to the volcano and are camping in tents and school gymnasium. I’ve heard they need food and water and maybe even a new home by the time it’s all over.
Now we are heading back to Bali to rejoin Dirk and Luke and an island on edge. And all I can think is, Wow, and really, Lord?
And I keep asking God to fill me with his fullness and He keeps taking me to empty places He wants to heal. I keep looking around for who and how and realizing it’s you and me.
I woke up today and read, “He (Jesus) didn’t make it easy for himself by avoiding people’s troubles, but waded right in and helped out.” Romans 15:3-6 MSG
So I don’t have to wonder where he is or wait for permission to join him there. I remind myself it’s when wading turns to over-my -head, he teaches me how to swim.
I wonder if the guy in the shirt knows he’s worth much more than he claims. And if our guardians of prosperity are really wardens of our prisons.
Cause a billionaire still bleeds and a child in the cemetery still has dreams. And when your home is blowing up you’ll grab your children and leave your cows too.
Truly, we are the same.
It’s surreal to kiss my boys goodnight while reminding them what to do if the earth shakes them awake at night.
I often wake up praying and realizing how fleeting it all is.
We’ve been given the gift of a turn on this earth and receive it most fully when we give it away.
And I’m learning more and more what that means. It requires everything but leaves us lacking for nothing and ruined for anything else.
This to me, is the mystery and fullness of God.