It’s my birthday.
I know they say our lives are the accumulation of the choices we make. Implying I guess, the better our decisions, the better life it’ll add up to.
I’m not good at math, and my experience with God is that he’s not either.
Very honestly, the sum of my life experiences so far is richer, wider, deeper and higher than anything I imagined or ever could have built.
Mine is a life buoyed by grace.
Only God and I know the depths I’ve sunk and that he’s come to rescue me.
Over and over he has come.
Over and over he keeps coming.
He will always come.
What’s the point of running (though sometimes I still do) or why fear wrong turns when Love will always come for me and grace will lead me home.
I used to grit my teeth and follow rules to get it right, til Love sprung me free. I go back there sometimes but never stay for long. It’s the deadest place I know.
I’ve been embarrassingly foolish then frittered too much time in shame. Thank God for Jesus who rescues me from me.
I jump at the chance to go with him because he’s the only one who came for me. And where he goes is always after someone else.
And all the someone else’s are the bests parts of my life.
What a thrill it is to lose your life then find it fully…over and over and over again.
44 years of not adding up.
All because of Jesus.
All because of Love.
“Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life…” Psalms 23:6
“Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming down to us from God…James 1:17